<This was written in 2009 before I returned home from mission training in the Philippines, I made a few grammar changes>
I sit and wonder why does my heart beat so fast, why do I smile even when I'm doing the worst job or tired, how come I am happy and cheerful and love life. There has been alot changes in my life. I have grown patient, I have accepted things with ease, I have become closer to God and He has allowed me to love more, love deeply and love unconditionally. Tears flow, smiles are formed, yes is shouted out and No is shut in, I have come a long way since January 4 2009 and I know I have a long way still to go.
I returned home from the Philippines renewed and ready, ready for any challenge that may come my way. I returned ready to teach and learn, learn from my past how to move on in the future, I returned ready to forgive and love, love like Jesus said too.
The hard part about returning home is that I returned home changed but home may not of changed. I returned to reality where time did not stop or change may not of taken place. I returned home to the biggest challenge ever.....not trying to change home but showing home how I have changed.
Relationships may be tested cause of this and I may not see it at first because I was away for so long, but my prayer right now is that my change would just bring love to all around me, love so that I may not feel better or worst than others, love so that I may help others and accept help from them, love so that I may grow with them as God wants me to. Love so that I may love them unconditionally.
This may be hard but I am ready for the challenge, I am Renewed!!!
I sit and wonder why does my heart beat so fast, why do I smile even when I'm doing the worst job or tired, how come I am happy and cheerful and love life. There has been alot changes in my life. I have grown patient, I have accepted things with ease, I have become closer to God and He has allowed me to love more, love deeply and love unconditionally. Tears flow, smiles are formed, yes is shouted out and No is shut in, I have come a long way since January 4 2009 and I know I have a long way still to go.
I returned home from the Philippines renewed and ready, ready for any challenge that may come my way. I returned ready to teach and learn, learn from my past how to move on in the future, I returned ready to forgive and love, love like Jesus said too.
The hard part about returning home is that I returned home changed but home may not of changed. I returned to reality where time did not stop or change may not of taken place. I returned home to the biggest challenge ever.....not trying to change home but showing home how I have changed.
Relationships may be tested cause of this and I may not see it at first because I was away for so long, but my prayer right now is that my change would just bring love to all around me, love so that I may not feel better or worst than others, love so that I may help others and accept help from them, love so that I may grow with them as God wants me to. Love so that I may love them unconditionally.
This may be hard but I am ready for the challenge, I am Renewed!!!
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| overlooking the China Sea |
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